its not dat i dun love the family.

but tell me,

will u be happy, if u seem to be the one everyone cant get along wif?

i quarrelled wif my mum,

i fought wif my dad,

i fought n quarrelled wif the sis,

i quarrelled wif the bro.

problem lies in me, doesnt it.

ya, i dun nid to study.

but im smarter den many of u.

its not an overstatement.

i noe how i can ace a subject, if i just use one night to burn the midnight oil.

n it amused me how many ppl in my secondary school flunked english,

bcos dats the subject i nvr had to study n still, had my essay chosen for benchmarking.

(i noe im going to be hated for the aforementioned, but im reli dis frank.)

but i lost interest in studies,

n i never managed to find it back.

i work for money.

i quit when i hv it.

i work when i nid it again.

whats wrong wif dat?

i can c my future very clearly, its definitely neither dim nor bleak.

im jus luckier den many ppl.

im lucky i hv a serious bf who loves me n provides me the best he can, n we're so serious wif each other, we're DISCUSSING marriage after almost 4yrs of being together.

y all the big fuss, when i definitely noe wad im doing, n ive found someone who can surely qualify for the best husband title?

definitely, i'll be seen as the wrong do-er dis time round again.

is there ever once im not?

but im ok wif it.

used to it, actually.

i wish the bf is by my side now.

he's nvr good at comforting, but his presence is enough.

bye.

i lost my hp la fuckkkkkkkkkkkkkk.

its my first time man.

darling definitely will scold me when he noes abt it.

..............................

i wan to call him to let him noe,

but his chief's numbers r in MY HANDPHONE.

bloody ass.

bye.

today's 18th!

its our 45th monthsary!

im sure darling's thinking of dis too, tho i dunno where he is right now...

might be in the middle of the seas, might be at penang, might be at india already. =(

hope he doesnt get bulled by the ahbunehnehs.

omg he'll be in a country full of ahbunehnehs, poor baobei!

im feeling sick n weak all over...

ohya,

darling n i cooked spaghetti for KaKa ytd!

we had spaghetti wif cheesy hotdogs (dey're a bit burnt, thanks to urs truly, but dey tasted superb nontheless!), while KaKa had spaghetti wif steamed salmon n carrots, wif a dollop of the tomato sauce hehe.

n his poo's nvr smelled so disgusting before.

can faint ah!

somemore the strong gust of wind had to come when im squating to clear the poo. (i brought KaKa out for his walk.)

im always cooking salmon for KaKa,

bcos i dunno how to cook anything else.

wanted to try lamb,

but mummy nvr cook lamb b4 so i dunno how to cook lamb too.

not my fault hehe.

byebyebye.

my darling left for India already... =(

he kissed KaKa before leaving haha, i made him actually.

pray hard dat the weather will be fine everyday n night!

im ultra sad la, i sent darling to his bike n he's holding me by my shoulders damn tightly...

but i bit back the tears lor, cos mummy said cannot cry in front of him, ltr he no mood to work.

den i returned home n lay on my bed wif his pillow n singlet, n fell asleep after crying.

im going to slp wif the singlet everynight.

got his smell haha.

i always keep his singlet wif me when he's away, if not cant slp...

ytd KaKa was attacked by my neighbour's jackrussell!

ive nvr seen KaKa fighting wif other dogs b4, n im not even sure whether he'll fight back if he were to be attacked.

he's always been very friendly towards every doggy lor.

he plays wif everyone he sees!

there's only once, i dunno y he disliked dis shihtzu so much, he kept escaping whenever the shihtzu approached him.

so dis jackrussell, lets call him jacky!

my mummy brought KaKa down for his walk, n she said my neighbour's maid copycat follow her down oso haha.

so dis maid brought jacky down, without leashing him.

dey actually hv another goldenretriever, call him goldie, which the maid didnt bring down, thank goodness.

ive seen both jacky n goldie behaving aggressively towards other dogs lor, n there's once dey cornered me at the staircase bcos i hv a bag of mcdonald's in my hand.

dats b4 i gt KaKa n i was so scared!

so when KaKa n jacky met, dey started sniffing each other for a short while.

den jacky tried to bite KaKa on his stomach!

upon seeing dat my mummy immediately carried KaKa into her arms n shouted at the maid to carry jacky, but the bloody ahbuneh took her time n walked damn slow.

its actually dangerous for my mummy to carry KaKa up in the midst of a fight, jacky might bite my mum instead.

i pointed dat out to her n she said "dat dog already so fierce wan bite KaKa already, of cos faster carry protect my one first."

omg my tears wan fly out man.

everyone reli dotes on KaKa alot. =D

i ran into jacky again along the corridor just now after KaKa's walk.

n he growled at KaKa!

i carried my baby up b4 jacky can hurt him, n shot my neighbours a cold hard stare.

i told darling im very tempted to complain to the ava abt my neighbours.

hehehe.

firstly, goldie's not allowed in hdbs.

secondly, only 1 dog's allowed in each hdb unit.

thirdly, jacky n goldie's not supposed to be unleashed at all times when dey're out!

im reli worried dat KaKa might run into goldie one day.

grs r supposed to be very friendly, but i dunno y dis goldie's so aggressive.

he's always barking at KaKa each time he sees us walk past.

but i dun wan to c goldie being taken away or abandoned as well...

my heart's totally not into it all the while im typing dis.

i cant wait for darling to be back...

i just bathed KaKa, n he's smelling nice!

shall go hughug him n tell him how much i miss his daddy!

byebye.

the dearest dearest dearest person in my life's leaving for India in 4days' time.

some bloody culture exchange trip.

n he'll only be back on 30jan!

the 2 long weeks will be a torture for me.

=(

byebye.

i can feel the curry gravy n chicken bits piling the length of my intestines, filling my stomach to the brim, n struggling to come out of my throat.

y cant dey go the other way down huh.

easier dat way.

overkilled myself ytd wif mummy's curry chicken.

couldnt slp well at night n KaKa's not helping by waking up n whine for me every hour or so, until he finally fell asleep at 4:14am.

so i slept at 5plus if i rmbr correctly.

KaKa's feeling sad since ytd noon, i dunno y!

we noe when he's feeling crappy,

bcos he'll not eat his brekkie n he'll stroll ard the house looking for corners to slp in n he'll play lesser den usual.

darling n i bot a gf for KaKa,

to replace the badly disfigured n cut open monkey.

cut open by me, bcos i wanted to take out the battery box in its stomach.

but after taking out the bits n pieces, i dunno how to stitch it back up.

hehe so i felt guilty n we went to mini toons n bot a stuffed piggy home.

n its pink colour, so i called it zhuzhu, KaKa's gf!

hv to headache over KaKa's kibbles again.

dunno wad brand to change to!

darling mentioned changi village for dinner.

YAY!

lets c whether dis time i'll dare to go up och.

everytime we go changi village darling will wan ride up the path into och to scare me.

n i'll scream n shriek for him to go home.

lol.

dis is a totally boring post.

byebye.

a min ago, i smacked KaKa on his butt n scolded him naughty boy.

he laid quietly on the floor beside his gonggong (my daddy) n acted like he wont do it again.

now, a min after, he's up n hopping ard biting gonggong's fingers, again.

surprisingly, gonggong's ultra patient wif KaKa!

even more so den he was wif us!

he's always defending KaKa when i cane or scold him.

he dotes on KaKa super duper much.

i was just telling mummy,

when KaKa's still young n in his playpen, he'll bark to demand to be let out.

n i'll shout "QUIET!", he'll go silent immediately.

now, when he barks for sth, like food or play or attention,

i shout myself hoarse he oso wont listen to me.

dog big 18 changes.

i read from the dog behavior book dat he behaves in dis way due to us spoiling him n giving in to whatever he wans.

i tried to retrain him,

but he's even more stubborn den me n bf!

can u imagine how reli stubborn he is!?

bf scared me ytd while im making up.

he was playing wif KaKa, n he did some naughty act again expectedly.

n darling actually shouted so loud at him, both KaKa n i were dumbfounded!

KaKa actually looked at me while he stands against my bed wif one of his hands in midair,

n stared at his normally gentle daddy for a few seconds.

i was laughing so hard at KaKa's reaction la!

den after he gt over the shock he returned to pouncing n hopping all ard n making his daddy angry again.

daddy actually shouted in dat scary manner thrice.

n, KaKa gt immuned to it too, just like how he is to my shoutings n scoldings.

-.-

darling finally brought me to pastamania to curb my craving for creamy chicken spaghetti!

but no use, the craving came back today.

i complained from day1 when pastamania changed their cheese holder to the current kind instead of the old scoop-out kind.

u'll faint if u c the way i eat dat rich creamy stuff.

i add THICK LAYERS of cheese onto the top of my spaghetti,

den after i finished dat layer,

i add another THICK LAYER of cheese.

i continue doing dis until i finish to the last bit of sauce.

(even dat last bit MUST be covered in cheese too!)

i tried looking at the way i eat in a third person view,

n im totally disgusted by myself.

ohya darling actually wanted to eat KFC, bcos we damn long no eat dat stuff already.

but i scolded him damn harshly!

bcos i swore dat me n bennyheng will nvr eat KFC again for the rest of our lives.

ya i swore, but too bad mrheng, ur name's in the vow.

watch dis n u'll noe y.

but i gave in n let him buy cheese fries to satisfy HIS craving.

haha im so mean to him sometimes.

but he still loves me deeply n i love him for dat.

my head's so full of stuff rite now.

bf just sort of proposed to me last night while we were on bike!

HAHAHA.

silly guy.

my dream house will be wherever u r!

byebye!

im sorry i blogged twice in a day.

thrice actually, but the earlier post's 7dec so its ytd.

ya.

anyway,

i jus wan to say,

there's many things, which i dun say only.

but dat doesnt mean, i dunno wad u're saying.

i wont be used by u again.

dis time, i'll stand firm.

u're just, another asshole.

n a bloody ripper.

bye.

OMG KAKA ATE DURIAN!
n the worse thing is,
HE LOVES IT!!!
i told him im not going to kiss him anymore,
n he goes to his daddy indifferently,
standing up tall wagging his tail waiting to be fed. -.-
i almost died of the stench just now.
luckily dey finished all the durians already.

hates it when darling buys durians!
everyone eats dat disgusting blop of yellow smelly thing,
everyone except me!
oh, n weiwei!
=D

byebye!

ok dis was taken sometime ago, bcos i failed to capture a decent shot of him before he switched to another position.
but the position's the same.
rmbr reading dat sleeping wif belly exposed means he feels very comfy n safe in his surroundings.
heh, no wonder he always slp in dis position. =D

now he wakes,
n he stretches wif his hands on my feet.
den he strolled like a laopekpek to the kitchen,
n he squats on his peetray,
n peed!
clever boy!

hahaha, im jus too bored.

bf's having his tp tmr, for class 2a.
i dunno y he's wasting money n time going for a 2a license, when he could continue pursuing his driving license instead.
i dun wan him to change to a 2a bike!
he'll only ride even faster n more dangerously den he is doing now.
but he's totally a stubborn old buffalo,
i noe he wont listen to my nags n advise.
i told him i shall be the one to get a driving license instead, n i'll fetch him to n back from work everyday wif KaKa.
n, HE LAUGHED ME OFF!

walao im serious ok my dear.
tho i noe i cant get any worse when it comes to tackling directions, n i seem to be plain unlucky when it comes to guessing which way to go when we're at a loss as well. (9 out of 10 times i guessed wrongly n we ended up going to the other end of singapore...)
n... i actually like to race wif other ppl on road, dis is a secret i nvr confessed to anyone other den my dear!
i'll actually, tell my darling to go faster when i c other bikes (esp waves n phantoms! i die die cant tolerate phantoms overtaking us!) overtake us.
esp those malay riders who'll take a long look at us when dey ride past,
i die die oso wan poor darling to overtake them, which we do everytime hehe.
n i'll be damn happy when we overtake 2a bikes.
long ago i already suspected dat my dear bf oso has a racing side inside of him bcos he'll ride damn fast when he sees other sportsbikes in front, den if dey overtake us darling will only speed up even more n overtake again, tho sometimes he just cant be bothered n i'll make him go faster.
but he always dun admit one, not like me, i admit to him i like to overtake other bikes haha.
so if i reli do drive, i think i'll focus so hard on overtaking i totally forget there's sth called traffic lights on the roads.

im going to cook fish fish for KaKa again ltr.
dats wad i tell him when i decide to cook him salmon for dinner la.
damn smelly, the fishy smell lingers on my fingers far too long, even after i scrubbed them hard wif mamalemon.
bloody fish.
but its supposed to be good for KaKa's skin n fur, so dun like oso hv to cook.
n he likes it damn much even tho theres no seasonings no nth, he gobbles everything up within 3mins flat when there's rice, n 1.5 when there's none.
fatty bombom.

my 2 ulcers adjacent to each other on my bottom lips r killing me!
all thanks to my dearest, for braking suddenly when we were going home from marina square after the fireworks on new yr.
he braked too hard, n i rammed into his helmet bcos i haven pull down my visor.
so my lips bled n the nxt time i checked my reflection, which is when i got home, damnit, 2 ulcers popped n grew bigger n bigger by the min until dey might as well join forces n form an ultra big one n kill me on the spot instead of torturing me day by day.
i dun even dare to put salt on them lor, i used to poke my ex-ulcers wif toothpicks DEN put salt ok. my pain endurance level's damn high.
KaKa oso has an ulcer on his tongue.
its been there damn long already n it doesnt seem to want to go away, even after a round of antibiotics.
poor baby, but it doesnt appear to be painful for him, since he doesnt whine or anything.
shall bring him to the vet again after cny.

some photos of my KaKa;

he fell asleep while i took dis photo of him!

made me laugh till the stitches came.

he's damn cute he's damn cute he's damn cute!
im not boasting im not bragging,
KaKa reli is damn cute!

oh ya watch dis clip if u're a fur lover.

n if u r, SHAME ON YOU!

darling went back to work today... =(
past few days were spent sticky-ly.
hahaha.
dats bcos we're together everyday n night, from christmas till ytd!
except for the parts where he went home to change hehe.
i like it dis way.
we'll wake up together, be welcomed together by KaKa, play wif him together, find snacks to eat together, watch tv together, go online together, take a nap together, go for dinner together, go home together, make KaKa slp together, n fall asleep together!
how nice if we can spend everyday of our lives lidat,
together. =D


its a new new year!
while almost everyone who blogs's typing down their list of resolutions, im not gonna bother to.
i dun hv the habit of making resolutions,
n i dun like them either.
so im not bothering to think of all the stupid shit.


KaKa's sleeping beside mummy now,
how sweet!


went out wif darling ytd for dinner at 925.
stingray, which we promised not to eat again bcos it smells nice but tastes shitty, n claypot 田鸡!
do we still call dat frog in english?
there shld be another term for it......... hmm i forgot.
eugh it sounds disgusting when i say i ate claypot frog.
but the claypot 田鸡 from 925's best!
i love 925,
ppl who studied or stays in yishun will definitely noe the place.
i hv ex colleagues who go all the way to 925 from potong pasir to hv supper!
so many bests there!
best chicken rice, best claypot 田鸡, best prawn noodles, best lemon tea...
omg, the chicken rice...........


so ya, after dinner we went for AVP2!
quite nice, tho abit short, n a teeny wenny bit confusing for me,
cos i totally forgot wad took place in AVP.
i was asking darling alot of questions thruout the movie haha.
ohya evening before we watched iamlegend, finally, n its quite nice wad.
gathered from the net quite alot of negative ratings for it.
i cried when sam died!
needless to say, i was thinking of KaKa when i watched him die.
after the movie i asked darling sadly wad we shld do when the day comes for KaKa to leave us.
i dunno how i will handle it man...
im so used to having him welcome me when i reach home, n he noes way before i reach my doorstep each time!
i dunno is his ears damn power, or he reli can sense his mummy coming home.
imagine one day i come home, only to hv no KaKa jumping n hopping n following me all ard, omg............
the movie's very depressing leh, to me.
like, u're the only one alive!
if its me i wont survive past 3days.
n the zombies damn disgusting la when dey ran.
darling imitated how dey run when we're home hahaha, totally disgusted.
stupid guy.

got home n took photos wif my precious baby!



















looking at my fingers.

















STILL looking at my fingers.















n he attacked!
he's always play biting nowadays, n he choose target one lor.
its always me, his daddy, n his gonggong(my daddy).
i dun think he bites my bro, tho he sometimes likes to chase him hahaha.
its not painful la, but it hurts sometimes bcos his teeth's damn sharp!
he's just being mischievous, i noe dat if he reli wans bite, long ago i'd hv bled.



















he bites,















n bites,


















n bites.



















den i dunno for wad reason he rolls over n still, bites.



















damn playful dis boy.


























c, rolls over n bites again!
naughty lil imp!



















so its time to take out my cane!
last time it belonged to my mummy,
now its mine!
daddy taped the ends to prevent the splinters or whatever u call dat from hurting KaKa.
once KaKa sees the cane, he'll stop whatever naughty acts he's doing, n act sad, or act like he dunno wad he did wrong.




































dis is his act blur face.
when he's reli sad, u can c his face totally different from normal one, n he'll whine n cry.
esp when he sees his daddy going home, he'll cry n whine nonstop.
so far ive not seen him angry, tho he growls when he playbites, n i'll growl back at him n we sound like we're conversing reli.



















hides under the table.


































































c, no more funny business from KaKa once i take out my cane haha.
but he oso became very emo after seeing the cane. -.-


































dis lil fatty makes me reli angry at times,
but he never fails to make me smile n laugh everytime.
sometimes i feel dat he understands wad im saying,
tho at other times he'll listen to me n walk away when im not done wif telling him my troubles yet.
n he walks away to pee/poo, or slp!!
but dat makes me laugh n forget wad im troubled wif in the first place!



















n to think we can be so close now.
when KaKa came to my house on the first day,
i dun even dare to carry him!
its only after he got diarrhoea few days ltr,
n i hv to rush him to the vet on my own,
dat i reli let go of my phobia for dogs. (i got chased by a black dog when i was in primary school before!)
can still rmbr how he slept on my lap while waiting,
n clinged onto my arm when the vet tried to carry him away,
n how i realised he pooed on me in the clinic. -.-


im so grateful dat i met KaKa, reli. =D
he's forever our baby!
bennyheng's n mine!






























my dearest hubby n me,
during a wedding dinner of my dunno who.
one of my relatives tot i changed bf!
she said darling looked different,
very handsome dat night! -.-
must be bcos of his shirt,
which he bot from bkk!




nice rite, the shirt.
he felt hot in the bus n unbuttoned it,
n i secretly snapsnap lol.
kept teasing him "act sexay sexay" after dat haha.



































taken after the dinner.
the 2 guys i love most!



















my lovely christmas present from the very doting hubby of mine.


















Tiffany&Co!
reli appreciate his efforts, from taking time to go n search for it, to thinking of ways to surprise me wif it.
i reli appreciate ur love for me my dear! =D















shall end the post wif my current favorite photo of my baby,
wif his favorite toy monkey which darling n i bot him from bkk.
the monkey's badly disfigured now, without his santa hat, eyes, nose, n mouth!
done by the playful fatty of cos!
but he still loves it, n i still love my KaKa.


will touch on new yr eve ltr, or tmr.
silly darling brought me to marina square for the fireworks!


shall go take a nap.
slept at 3 woke up at 7!
dats a torture for me.
i used to slp at least 15hours a day before KaKa came!


byebye!